4 mths ago, i remembered sitting beside your desk. when we were still msn-ing each other of the stupidest and silliest things ever. when you still had time to give me youtube links for my leisure viewing. Despite sitting so close to each other, we didn't bothered to talk to each other. Just had to msn.

i even remembered. For the first SSC programming meeting, i had to sms u to tell you i am very nervous. and you told me to jiayou. after that consecutively, we had phone calls till midnight.

then you became my personal Deejay. Giving me youtube links everyday in the morning just to greet me good morning.. Not only that.. We then realised we share common genre of songs... Then we started emailing silly things to each other's coy's email... i still remembered how i liked you to tell me how good i looked in the mrning.

those were the silliest memories. but back behind.. thousand and millions of feelings were involved. i was feeling so mixed up as i was having a bf at that point of time. after being in the army, i felt so lonely without him. that explains the drift.

never have i found out that i could not forget him.

just like how my godbro used to warn me..

everything with the guy was temporary. something fresh. something new.

its true.

i just didnt experience that from my previous bf. Thats why i was so attracted to it.

now i've woken up.

seen the truth to all.

but its all too late. everything's gone.. both of what i used to have is gone.

im back to square one. when i was single and freed.

its good also. I have no restrictions anymore. I just felt more lonelier than usual. but i guess i can cope it well. Just like how i used to. No worries. From today on, i will live to be a stronger person. I'm only 20! cummon. Life's still long for me.

:)

now what i really need to focus on is my career.. my future path. my family.

the rest doesnt really need my attention right now.

:)

4 mths ago, i remembered sitting beside your desk. when we were still msn-ing each other of the stupidest and silliest things ever. when you still had time to give me youtube links for my leisure viewing. Despite sitting so close to each other, we didn't bothered to talk to each other. Just had to msn.

i even remembered. For the first SSC programming meeting, i had to sms u to tell you i am very nervous. and you told me to jiayou. after that consecutively, we had phone calls till midnight.

then you became my personal Deejay. Giving me youtube links everyday in the morning just to greet me good morning.. Not only that.. We then realised we share common genre of songs... Then we started emailing silly things to each other's coy's email... i still remembered how i liked you to tell me how good i looked in the mrning.

those were the silliest memories. but back behind.. thousand and millions of feelings were involved. i was feeling so mixed up as i was having a bf at that point of time. after being in the army, i felt so lonely without him. that explains the drift.

never have i found out that i could not forget him.

just like how my godbro used to warn me..

everything with the guy was temporary. something fresh. something new.

its true.

i just didnt experience that from my previous bf. Thats why i was so attracted to it.

now i've woken up.

seen the truth to all.

but its all too late. everything's gone.. both of what i used to have is gone.

im back to square one. when i was single and freed.

its good also. I have no restrictions anymore. I just felt more lonelier than usual. but i guess i can cope it well. Just like how i used to. No worries. From today on, i will live to be a stronger person. I'm only 20! cummon. Life's still long for me.

:)

now what i really need to focus on is my career.. my future path. my family.

the rest doesnt really need my attention right now.

:)