AFTER MY REBONDING SESSION!
=))






OO! y see short hair ar? haha... layered de la..

=) so only the front is short.
coz i cut V shaped at back =)
fringe looks wierd. but quite nice ^^









see! told u its long! =)





before rebonding.





LOL! i cut n rebonded my hair!




the first day i go out after my hair is dome =)
cant face ppl coz i cant get used to the fringe.
haa.
then i wear cap.
nw i tink its ok le =))

happies happies

hehe.. ^^

so sian.
dunno hw mani days nv go play ball le.
haiz.

haa.
tml goin for talksss. hehe.

i saw gugu at tm todae.

haa. TM !!
so coincidence.
i reali tank god for her to meet me..
she passed me some money.
at first i very paiseh.
dun wan take de.
then she say share with bro n sis.
then i say okies lor..

=D yea.
thanks god in heaven.
its realli a blessing.
and i believe its smth u have sent me.

thank u! =)

i read eileen's blog.
and again.
reminded me of the past.

yea. watching idol dramas is a must and is my favourite.
but also.
it kills my heart.
as though its like an acid eating up my heart. bit by bit.

yes.
reality vs the dreams.

hw often do u see that as dreams come true?

stop lying.
no such things.
living in the real world jus makes me so terrified at times.

its jus so hard to live in the real world.

but wat to do?
im a REAL person aren't i?

sumtimes i reali hate those shows.
why must they juust give us imaginations and dreams?

it reali tortures u noe?

there wil b no happi ending in real world.
coz in the end. everyone wil die.

recarnation?
perhaps?
and a cycle comes again.
it will nv stop.

prince n princess.
always end in stories when they got married or got tog.
but wat happens after that?

get sick n tired?
quaareels then wil breakup perhaps?

so i m becoming to wisen up alrdy.
i wil jus face the fact that i m in reality.

not in my dreams anymore.

and finally..
i can say that.
he's left my heart alrdy.
totali vanished.

goodbye.

cny is coming.
cool.
im so nt qi dai.

------------------------------------
btw,
this whole week is cooled up with presentations.
monday we have OB which i had gone insane
and also today, tue, i suddenly became bimbotic through the presentation.
haaa.

cool ..

damm tired.

thur is french.
i haven done my bcs revision. nor micro tutorial.
tml gonna rush all out.

i;ve change my hair todae.
went amk to rebond it again.
LOL!
and its AGAIN..

LOL and i can say i look freaking retarded.
and its FREAKING i say.

haiz.
so miss min. wk dabo lin and huey.

lucky sat me wk and dabo wanna go shop for clothes! =))
CCOOL!
so qi dai!
i also having match on sat mans..

haa.
sundday working again..

i wonder.
will i die out of exhausion some day?
die out of tiredness?

perhaps?
haa..
no one can predict future u see.
so i dunno.
but i know if it reali happens
i reali let dwn my parents.

honest..

chardonnay.
good job working with u guys in year 2008.
we'll always have pictures arund us that paints our past (memories)
no forgets.
plus a bonus CRAZY presentation to end our cooperation for 2 sem.
and hereby i also mus tank Ms Siok Kia for bringing Chardonnay tog.

without her.
no green grapes on TP.
therefore. its thanks to her for finding the special coloured grape and putting them tog.

love every1 in chardonnay
the mirror woman-eileen (actualli is mf de)
the lentor woman-jiayu (always late LOL!)
the directive- u know who
directive's scandal- jerry (lamer)
and lastly .
our toilet promoter- mingfang. ("steffi wanna go toilet?")

LOL.
times we had.
pictures we took
rice we eat
LOL!
all memorable.
ok.
and of coz the proj rooms we used.

comm skilss is the last ting de
=) everyone hold on ok.
we can pass everyting successfully!

crazy.
slept at dunno wat time ytd to finish off bcs.
wtf can.
next mrning. woke at 10am.
rushed dwn to sunplaza.
and...

wtf.
guessed wat.
damm it.
im nt working mrning shift
but instead, night!
6 to 11!!
WTF!

damm angry the whole day.
sry mumi for flaring at u. =(
then came home and slpt til lunch time around 2.
walaoo..
then do bcs again.
and went cwp shop with mumi, sister and aunt.

wa!
i reali tank god for giving me a nice mother.

when i bad mood todae.
during lunch.
my bro asked my mum "why sis so bad mood?"
and my mum explains so detailed to my bro!
-not enuff slp when she love to slp the most
-angry at herself for wasting her own time
-cant get to do wat i m supposed to do todae
-waking up early
-rushin out for nth
-being careless

my god.
when i heard my mum.
i almost cried.
100% correct
=(
im so sry mum..
=(


then went to work.
haa. quite ok la.
after work.. went eating with jack and yirun.
knss both of them argh!

lol.
okies. at least i did not tink todae's wasted.

walao.
im supposed to go do rebonding!!
ARGH!
angrys..

o ya.
ytd. went shopping with mf and eileen.
halfway saw reuben, gwen n yy =)
hehe.
i bought 3 tops and one necklance!
yipps!
nice nice =))
and jus i spent onli jolly 40 + dollars.
im so glad of myself. =))

okies. shall work hard to get more money again.
LOL!

我不允许任何人靠近我..
不允许任何人伤害我..

但..
我累的时候
孤独的时候..
我发现到..
当我转身想找个人说话时..
一个人都没有..

我做了个决定..
我跟了我的原则..
但我一点都不快乐..

原则是舍么.

或许.我应该忘了吧..
完完全全的忘了吧..

我真的像个白痴..


busy. tired.
so i tend to be emotic.
LOLS. im tireds.

yawns.

emotic is kiling me.
gdnites

OMG.

plz.. i need to do smth to my hair..
real fast and real soon!

cny is coming

omg. =(


So very the busy.
too mani tings to do with so little time.

cummon..

study study study
proj proj proj
revise revise revise
hmwk hmwk hmwk
bball bball bball
work work work
slp slp slp
play com play com play com

this are basically wat i do in my life.
boring har?

shoping n movieing can only be desires for me nw..
no time + no money to do them.
WK! DABO! LINBO! MIN! HUI! cummon guys!
im so missing u all to do stufs together again.

when are we going to eat ? shooP? and play again?

ARGHH!!

14/2 is coming.
hw i wish i could die on tis very day.
LOL!

ok. cummon! im jus jk!
haaa..

btw..
ytd first day at work.
=) cool.. nt bad la..
gt to try all ice cream. LOL!
ya.. and overall stil nt a bad experience as i know sum stufs i have done before in my previous workplaces.

LOL!!
met new ppl. =) friendly ppl..
heh.. heh..

ytd marketing presentation was ok overall. =)
and i m so happi of those comments he gave our group.
excellent job guys!

gene- gd team member. at least u did a lot of stuffs u were told to. but next time when we're brainstorming ideas. try to give in ideas too k? =)

Jiayu- hahaha.. gooddddd work =) we finally finished it! YEA! juz next time dun go MIA again! haa.

Mun yi- thanks mun yi for the hard work for the research and stufs! you did a wonderful job. i admire u! and i m happy to work with u! =)

Tracy- erm.. at least u did someting.. ya. gd job

=)da jia jiayou!

hope. n prays on 1 feb..
when we got back our proj..
we wun leave the room with tears..
but..
=) happy faces awaitin to go sugar loafing!!!!

^^
steefii! ur grp was great too =)

i realli tink its so funny.

hw can someone hate n love someone so much.
at the same time? hw?

tell me i know and truely understands something named as "l-o-v-e"

u've nv left at all..
i hate the tings u do at times.
but once a smile u give me.

i felt assured. felt secured.

how should i do?
wat should i do to forget.

tis is so troubling.
someone always beside u.

u love that someone.
but u have to force urself to take him as a fren.

u love that someone
whom is always beside u.

u love that someone
whose alrdy attached.

u love that someone..
whom u once gave up coz of guilt.

u love that someone
but u can get nth but hurt each day.

u cant stop urself from seeing him. listening to him. smsing him.
u cant be tog with him.

love is jus in front of u. but u cant grab it.
the worst is.. u experience the torture seeing him n his gf toget..

the greatest pain tt i experienced in my whole lifetime.
is now..












When i need you..
u werent there.
when i neeeded ur words. ur comfort and ur company.
u werent there.
how i reali wish one day
tis feeling would go off just as it is.
coz my sufering nw is beyond imagination.
when u go home.
and i m alone at night.

my tots wonder.
i wonder whats with u n ur gf.

hw much u loved me as be4.

i brought hurt to u.
but myself too.

self sacrifice.

i made a decision.
therefore i m nw abiding it.
i m telling myself .forcing myself to stick to my decision.
do nt turn back.

coz it wil stil end up the same.
hw wil i ever ever ever get back to the time be4 i know u again.

i reali reali felt as though i m dying.
the pain is reali beyond imagination.

我不能否认..

我认识你的三个月..

你真的把我的世界弄得天翻地覆.

为了你..
我..

心真的痛了..

这次.. 我真心体会到心痛了..

有史以来.第一次..

拜托.
我只需要多些时间.
请放过我吧..

好吗..

i read ur blog.

i want to msg u.
but i dun.
then i wan again.
then i tink i beter nt.
Gemini ppl.
always so fickle minded.

was touched by the tings u always do for me.
3 years ago?
nw?
all.

thanks for tryin to understand me.
but i dun even understand myself.

因该爱的..
我却没爱..

不该爱的..
我却爱了..

要爱又没勇气..

i wanted someone to be with me always.
bt its always blocked by smth.

sry fer that nite.
didnt wen out to see u.
u said u knew everyting about me..
y i didn wanna enter in to rs.

i wanna know the reason to.
can u tel me.
i realli wanna know..

i..
nvms.
nites.

hi everys

been rather busy recently
htmkg project have been submitted.
no confidence.
but at least wil pass i guess..

Been biz guides for thur n fri. =)
fun but tiring.
INTERACTIONS!
so cool..
i get to advise ppl..
LOL!
Its fun though. =D
walking arund with the flag.
calling out ppl.
go LT shows..
hehe..

But nw have to rush through:
1. OB proj submission
2. Micro Proj submission
3. Public Speaking research
4. Public Speaking draft
5. Public speaking presentation
6. OB tutorial
7. CommSkills research
8. Commskils online
9.Micro Tutorial
10. Finish marketing studies of at least 3 chapt

cummon.
hw to live like tat?
worst.
im starting to work next wk.

thats bad.
real bad.

working means missing off family days and stuffs.
but now..
i dun tink i m in the position to talk about family days anymore.

haiz..
boreds.
tue and thur got training also.
tel me hw to survive.

nvm.
jus do it.

at most i only die off wat.
no big deal though.
=)

so tired.
im so sick of the ons and offs i have with my emotions when i see him.
cummon la kim.
dunn tink too much.
nth could b possible.
cummon.
lead ur life.
u only have friends and family in ur life.
no boyfriens ya =)

cummon =D


lets jus say.
im crazy.
coz the last 2 nites i onli have 4 hrs of slp.

yea.

心理的门.
几时才会打开..

surprised is all i can say.
recieving 2 shocks today.
was happi for one and nt for the other.

how was i supposed to do?
im confused..
should i give myself a few days tio tink through if i wanna give it a try?
or should i nt hurt u at all.

this hurt nw is better then the future hurt.
right?

excuses? ya. excuses.

i feel real bad everytime tis happens.
but i cant do anyting.
i dun wanna open my door.

coz once i open.
i wil get nth but hurt.
i opened once tis year. but he didnt manage to get in..

wat will happen if i open again.

everyone arund me is couples.
yes. who dun wan sumone to b beside u always.
but..

i dunno.. i realli dun.

but sumtimes. when i m tired.
i wil always tend to need someone with me.
why jus m i so sturborn?

我想要得到每个女人想得到的爱..
可是我..
是我想太多了..
真的..

AFTER MY REBONDING SESSION!
=))






OO! y see short hair ar? haha... layered de la..

=) so only the front is short.
coz i cut V shaped at back =)
fringe looks wierd. but quite nice ^^









see! told u its long! =)





before rebonding.





LOL! i cut n rebonded my hair!




the first day i go out after my hair is dome =)
cant face ppl coz i cant get used to the fringe.
haa.
then i wear cap.
nw i tink its ok le =))

happies happies

hehe.. ^^

so sian.
dunno hw mani days nv go play ball le.
haiz.

haa.
tml goin for talksss. hehe.

i saw gugu at tm todae.

haa. TM !!
so coincidence.
i reali tank god for her to meet me..
she passed me some money.
at first i very paiseh.
dun wan take de.
then she say share with bro n sis.
then i say okies lor..

=D yea.
thanks god in heaven.
its realli a blessing.
and i believe its smth u have sent me.

thank u! =)

i read eileen's blog.
and again.
reminded me of the past.

yea. watching idol dramas is a must and is my favourite.
but also.
it kills my heart.
as though its like an acid eating up my heart. bit by bit.

yes.
reality vs the dreams.

hw often do u see that as dreams come true?

stop lying.
no such things.
living in the real world jus makes me so terrified at times.

its jus so hard to live in the real world.

but wat to do?
im a REAL person aren't i?

sumtimes i reali hate those shows.
why must they juust give us imaginations and dreams?

it reali tortures u noe?

there wil b no happi ending in real world.
coz in the end. everyone wil die.

recarnation?
perhaps?
and a cycle comes again.
it will nv stop.

prince n princess.
always end in stories when they got married or got tog.
but wat happens after that?

get sick n tired?
quaareels then wil breakup perhaps?

so i m becoming to wisen up alrdy.
i wil jus face the fact that i m in reality.

not in my dreams anymore.

and finally..
i can say that.
he's left my heart alrdy.
totali vanished.

goodbye.

cny is coming.
cool.
im so nt qi dai.

------------------------------------
btw,
this whole week is cooled up with presentations.
monday we have OB which i had gone insane
and also today, tue, i suddenly became bimbotic through the presentation.
haaa.

cool ..

damm tired.

thur is french.
i haven done my bcs revision. nor micro tutorial.
tml gonna rush all out.

i;ve change my hair todae.
went amk to rebond it again.
LOL!
and its AGAIN..

LOL and i can say i look freaking retarded.
and its FREAKING i say.

haiz.
so miss min. wk dabo lin and huey.

lucky sat me wk and dabo wanna go shop for clothes! =))
CCOOL!
so qi dai!
i also having match on sat mans..

haa.
sundday working again..

i wonder.
will i die out of exhausion some day?
die out of tiredness?

perhaps?
haa..
no one can predict future u see.
so i dunno.
but i know if it reali happens
i reali let dwn my parents.

honest..

chardonnay.
good job working with u guys in year 2008.
we'll always have pictures arund us that paints our past (memories)
no forgets.
plus a bonus CRAZY presentation to end our cooperation for 2 sem.
and hereby i also mus tank Ms Siok Kia for bringing Chardonnay tog.

without her.
no green grapes on TP.
therefore. its thanks to her for finding the special coloured grape and putting them tog.

love every1 in chardonnay
the mirror woman-eileen (actualli is mf de)
the lentor woman-jiayu (always late LOL!)
the directive- u know who
directive's scandal- jerry (lamer)
and lastly .
our toilet promoter- mingfang. ("steffi wanna go toilet?")

LOL.
times we had.
pictures we took
rice we eat
LOL!
all memorable.
ok.
and of coz the proj rooms we used.

comm skilss is the last ting de
=) everyone hold on ok.
we can pass everyting successfully!

crazy.
slept at dunno wat time ytd to finish off bcs.
wtf can.
next mrning. woke at 10am.
rushed dwn to sunplaza.
and...

wtf.
guessed wat.
damm it.
im nt working mrning shift
but instead, night!
6 to 11!!
WTF!

damm angry the whole day.
sry mumi for flaring at u. =(
then came home and slpt til lunch time around 2.
walaoo..
then do bcs again.
and went cwp shop with mumi, sister and aunt.

wa!
i reali tank god for giving me a nice mother.

when i bad mood todae.
during lunch.
my bro asked my mum "why sis so bad mood?"
and my mum explains so detailed to my bro!
-not enuff slp when she love to slp the most
-angry at herself for wasting her own time
-cant get to do wat i m supposed to do todae
-waking up early
-rushin out for nth
-being careless

my god.
when i heard my mum.
i almost cried.
100% correct
=(
im so sry mum..
=(


then went to work.
haa. quite ok la.
after work.. went eating with jack and yirun.
knss both of them argh!

lol.
okies. at least i did not tink todae's wasted.

walao.
im supposed to go do rebonding!!
ARGH!
angrys..

o ya.
ytd. went shopping with mf and eileen.
halfway saw reuben, gwen n yy =)
hehe.
i bought 3 tops and one necklance!
yipps!
nice nice =))
and jus i spent onli jolly 40 + dollars.
im so glad of myself. =))

okies. shall work hard to get more money again.
LOL!

我不允许任何人靠近我..
不允许任何人伤害我..

但..
我累的时候
孤独的时候..
我发现到..
当我转身想找个人说话时..
一个人都没有..

我做了个决定..
我跟了我的原则..
但我一点都不快乐..

原则是舍么.

或许.我应该忘了吧..
完完全全的忘了吧..

我真的像个白痴..


busy. tired.
so i tend to be emotic.
LOLS. im tireds.

yawns.

emotic is kiling me.
gdnites

OMG.

plz.. i need to do smth to my hair..
real fast and real soon!

cny is coming

omg. =(


So very the busy.
too mani tings to do with so little time.

cummon..

study study study
proj proj proj
revise revise revise
hmwk hmwk hmwk
bball bball bball
work work work
slp slp slp
play com play com play com

this are basically wat i do in my life.
boring har?

shoping n movieing can only be desires for me nw..
no time + no money to do them.
WK! DABO! LINBO! MIN! HUI! cummon guys!
im so missing u all to do stufs together again.

when are we going to eat ? shooP? and play again?

ARGHH!!

14/2 is coming.
hw i wish i could die on tis very day.
LOL!

ok. cummon! im jus jk!
haaa..

btw..
ytd first day at work.
=) cool.. nt bad la..
gt to try all ice cream. LOL!
ya.. and overall stil nt a bad experience as i know sum stufs i have done before in my previous workplaces.

LOL!!
met new ppl. =) friendly ppl..
heh.. heh..

ytd marketing presentation was ok overall. =)
and i m so happi of those comments he gave our group.
excellent job guys!

gene- gd team member. at least u did a lot of stuffs u were told to. but next time when we're brainstorming ideas. try to give in ideas too k? =)

Jiayu- hahaha.. gooddddd work =) we finally finished it! YEA! juz next time dun go MIA again! haa.

Mun yi- thanks mun yi for the hard work for the research and stufs! you did a wonderful job. i admire u! and i m happy to work with u! =)

Tracy- erm.. at least u did someting.. ya. gd job

=)da jia jiayou!

hope. n prays on 1 feb..
when we got back our proj..
we wun leave the room with tears..
but..
=) happy faces awaitin to go sugar loafing!!!!

^^
steefii! ur grp was great too =)

i realli tink its so funny.

hw can someone hate n love someone so much.
at the same time? hw?

tell me i know and truely understands something named as "l-o-v-e"

u've nv left at all..
i hate the tings u do at times.
but once a smile u give me.

i felt assured. felt secured.

how should i do?
wat should i do to forget.

tis is so troubling.
someone always beside u.

u love that someone.
but u have to force urself to take him as a fren.

u love that someone
whom is always beside u.

u love that someone
whose alrdy attached.

u love that someone..
whom u once gave up coz of guilt.

u love that someone
but u can get nth but hurt each day.

u cant stop urself from seeing him. listening to him. smsing him.
u cant be tog with him.

love is jus in front of u. but u cant grab it.
the worst is.. u experience the torture seeing him n his gf toget..

the greatest pain tt i experienced in my whole lifetime.
is now..












When i need you..
u werent there.
when i neeeded ur words. ur comfort and ur company.
u werent there.
how i reali wish one day
tis feeling would go off just as it is.
coz my sufering nw is beyond imagination.
when u go home.
and i m alone at night.

my tots wonder.
i wonder whats with u n ur gf.

hw much u loved me as be4.

i brought hurt to u.
but myself too.

self sacrifice.

i made a decision.
therefore i m nw abiding it.
i m telling myself .forcing myself to stick to my decision.
do nt turn back.

coz it wil stil end up the same.
hw wil i ever ever ever get back to the time be4 i know u again.

i reali reali felt as though i m dying.
the pain is reali beyond imagination.

我不能否认..

我认识你的三个月..

你真的把我的世界弄得天翻地覆.

为了你..
我..

心真的痛了..

这次.. 我真心体会到心痛了..

有史以来.第一次..

拜托.
我只需要多些时间.
请放过我吧..

好吗..

i read ur blog.

i want to msg u.
but i dun.
then i wan again.
then i tink i beter nt.
Gemini ppl.
always so fickle minded.

was touched by the tings u always do for me.
3 years ago?
nw?
all.

thanks for tryin to understand me.
but i dun even understand myself.

因该爱的..
我却没爱..

不该爱的..
我却爱了..

要爱又没勇气..

i wanted someone to be with me always.
bt its always blocked by smth.

sry fer that nite.
didnt wen out to see u.
u said u knew everyting about me..
y i didn wanna enter in to rs.

i wanna know the reason to.
can u tel me.
i realli wanna know..

i..
nvms.
nites.

hi everys

been rather busy recently
htmkg project have been submitted.
no confidence.
but at least wil pass i guess..

Been biz guides for thur n fri. =)
fun but tiring.
INTERACTIONS!
so cool..
i get to advise ppl..
LOL!
Its fun though. =D
walking arund with the flag.
calling out ppl.
go LT shows..
hehe..

But nw have to rush through:
1. OB proj submission
2. Micro Proj submission
3. Public Speaking research
4. Public Speaking draft
5. Public speaking presentation
6. OB tutorial
7. CommSkills research
8. Commskils online
9.Micro Tutorial
10. Finish marketing studies of at least 3 chapt

cummon.
hw to live like tat?
worst.
im starting to work next wk.

thats bad.
real bad.

working means missing off family days and stuffs.
but now..
i dun tink i m in the position to talk about family days anymore.

haiz..
boreds.
tue and thur got training also.
tel me hw to survive.

nvm.
jus do it.

at most i only die off wat.
no big deal though.
=)

so tired.
im so sick of the ons and offs i have with my emotions when i see him.
cummon la kim.
dunn tink too much.
nth could b possible.
cummon.
lead ur life.
u only have friends and family in ur life.
no boyfriens ya =)

cummon =D


lets jus say.
im crazy.
coz the last 2 nites i onli have 4 hrs of slp.

yea.

心理的门.
几时才会打开..

surprised is all i can say.
recieving 2 shocks today.
was happi for one and nt for the other.

how was i supposed to do?
im confused..
should i give myself a few days tio tink through if i wanna give it a try?
or should i nt hurt u at all.

this hurt nw is better then the future hurt.
right?

excuses? ya. excuses.

i feel real bad everytime tis happens.
but i cant do anyting.
i dun wanna open my door.

coz once i open.
i wil get nth but hurt.
i opened once tis year. but he didnt manage to get in..

wat will happen if i open again.

everyone arund me is couples.
yes. who dun wan sumone to b beside u always.
but..

i dunno.. i realli dun.

but sumtimes. when i m tired.
i wil always tend to need someone with me.
why jus m i so sturborn?

我想要得到每个女人想得到的爱..
可是我..
是我想太多了..
真的..