Okies,
i've decided to be very honest with myself and start to list down the reasons to STAY or NOT STAY in my internship company.



GD THINGS TO WHY I SHOULD STAY:-
- Got Macbook to use
- Got monthly pay (consistent income)*
- Can bond more with my fave intern buddy (J.K.)*
- Can expose to more exciting events (becoming my interest)
- Learn more about events, includes pitching....
- Opportunity to flyy abroad
- Can save up to study University
- Can start up my career path

BUT:-
- cannot be flexible to leave for grad trips/meet-ups with buddies
- return hm late everyday
- travel far away from home
- cant study university now
- Miss alot of time with family members
- have to tolerate the amount of stress and scoldings as usual (being afraid of every single mistake i make each day)


WHY SHOULD I NOT STAY:-
- Need not get so stress up over small lil matters
- Need not get more scoldings (if do wrong tings)
- Need not endure mood swings (or anything emotional)
- Need not to have sleepless nights
- Need not to have to tolerate ppl's attitude and laziness
- More time with buddies & Family.
-More time with dear
- Flexible to work part time all over the place like i used to
- able to work with brother at FW again
- can 100% concentrate into studying (like real)
- can play hard (provided got money)
- Can play around with my own time, no need to report and apply for leave to go for grad trips etc.

BUT:-
- no monthly income*
- no opportunity to fly abroad*
- no macbook
- no more htht with J.K.
- no more running my favourite events (include DFSG -.-")


Honestly speaking,
in the prospective of a mature thinking adult, it would be an advantage to stay.
Why?

In such times, its hard to find ppl offering you a job with good offers like this.

Not only that,
its also hard to find people that recognises your effort and empower you (to a certain extend).

The things that are making me not wanting to stay are very redundant as they are bound to be such problems that i will face in the coming future, in my next full time job.
Its to see if i can face it and tolerate with the reality.

I just think that by not staying in Ultrex, it makes me a coward to not wanting to face the world.
By staying in Ultrex, it makes me a braver person.
A more mature one, to be able to understand what the future working world looks like, and what should i expect.

In the childish aspect of me, basically i do not want to stay in Ultrex simply means that I do not wish to be tied down.
I do nt want to have someone to report to when i want to go for trips or stay home slack and rest all day long.
I do not want to have lesser time to play and spend with my love ones.
these are the things tat matters to me now.
but in the coming future, i will have to learn to plan for bigger picture.


soo...
Yes to Ultrex, no to police. no to university as now.
No to Ultrex, yes to police, yes to university, yes to bond of 4 yrs with police/bank loan.

what should be the option?
once again, im asking for ppl's opinion.

but i think, roughly in my mind.
i have an answer.
im just being childish to drag it on, hoping that something better or a better offer might pop up.


every single day.
every single second.
i face different mood.
i face different things.
i feel differently.

honestly, i just want to do my job well.
i want the recognition.
but will i get it?
ah. another factor to consider.

tsk tsk...

Labels: considerations, Internship, recognition, should i stay?

Okies,
i've decided to be very honest with myself and start to list down the reasons to STAY or NOT STAY in my internship company.



GD THINGS TO WHY I SHOULD STAY:-
- Got Macbook to use
- Got monthly pay (consistent income)*
- Can bond more with my fave intern buddy (J.K.)*
- Can expose to more exciting events (becoming my interest)
- Learn more about events, includes pitching....
- Opportunity to flyy abroad
- Can save up to study University
- Can start up my career path

BUT:-
- cannot be flexible to leave for grad trips/meet-ups with buddies
- return hm late everyday
- travel far away from home
- cant study university now
- Miss alot of time with family members
- have to tolerate the amount of stress and scoldings as usual (being afraid of every single mistake i make each day)


WHY SHOULD I NOT STAY:-
- Need not get so stress up over small lil matters
- Need not get more scoldings (if do wrong tings)
- Need not endure mood swings (or anything emotional)
- Need not to have sleepless nights
- Need not to have to tolerate ppl's attitude and laziness
- More time with buddies & Family.
-More time with dear
- Flexible to work part time all over the place like i used to
- able to work with brother at FW again
- can 100% concentrate into studying (like real)
- can play hard (provided got money)
- Can play around with my own time, no need to report and apply for leave to go for grad trips etc.

BUT:-
- no monthly income*
- no opportunity to fly abroad*
- no macbook
- no more htht with J.K.
- no more running my favourite events (include DFSG -.-")


Honestly speaking,
in the prospective of a mature thinking adult, it would be an advantage to stay.
Why?

In such times, its hard to find ppl offering you a job with good offers like this.

Not only that,
its also hard to find people that recognises your effort and empower you (to a certain extend).

The things that are making me not wanting to stay are very redundant as they are bound to be such problems that i will face in the coming future, in my next full time job.
Its to see if i can face it and tolerate with the reality.

I just think that by not staying in Ultrex, it makes me a coward to not wanting to face the world.
By staying in Ultrex, it makes me a braver person.
A more mature one, to be able to understand what the future working world looks like, and what should i expect.

In the childish aspect of me, basically i do not want to stay in Ultrex simply means that I do not wish to be tied down.
I do nt want to have someone to report to when i want to go for trips or stay home slack and rest all day long.
I do not want to have lesser time to play and spend with my love ones.
these are the things tat matters to me now.
but in the coming future, i will have to learn to plan for bigger picture.


soo...
Yes to Ultrex, no to police. no to university as now.
No to Ultrex, yes to police, yes to university, yes to bond of 4 yrs with police/bank loan.

what should be the option?
once again, im asking for ppl's opinion.

but i think, roughly in my mind.
i have an answer.
im just being childish to drag it on, hoping that something better or a better offer might pop up.


every single day.
every single second.
i face different mood.
i face different things.
i feel differently.

honestly, i just want to do my job well.
i want the recognition.
but will i get it?
ah. another factor to consider.

tsk tsk...

Labels: considerations, Internship, recognition, should i stay?