honestly..
hw can u do this to our family.

i dun understand hw ur liang xin can guo de qu lor.
even me..
hw old m i onli?
u expect me to bring up the whole family is it?

mummy hao bu rong yi able to kip tis family til nw n u dun appreciate?

i dun understand at all wat ya tinking can.

hw can u make mumi pay for everyting and try to avoid it all!?
u can do it?

i wonder wat makes up ur personality honestly.

ive been trying hard to make myself think that u have ur difficulties.
since young.
i have been brain washing myself saying u are just busy.
but plz.
look at urself.
i cant scream and shout at u coz u are me FATHER!
how u expect me to do?
slap u and shout at ur face?

this is the first time i can ren this kinda ting so long and finalli tel it out.

hmph.
to think i can be guilty towards u for the past.
nw..
i doubt so.

u can buy BLOODY stuffs like a few k and bring home like no ones business.
u can come home as and when u like just becoz u are concern with those fishes and nt US
u can come home and pretend that this is a wonderful money making HOTEL
u can avoid all the stuffs about money and push all to MUMMY!
u can buy so much stuffs but nt gimme money.

WOW
so m i supposed to b grateful for tt?
i cant curse and swear.
i cant cry out all my sadness and disappointeness about u anymore.
im so damm sick of it. i cant cry anymore.
its ultimate sadness
but i just cant express it out.
i wish i would just slp and nv wake up. (oki thats irresponsible. coz i wil b pushing it all to my mum)

FINE.
next time when i start to earn money.
dun blame me if i dun support u.
thats becoz u wasnt the one who brought me up.

ASK THOSE FISHES AT HOME TO SUPPORT U THEN.
I GUESS THEY ARE MORE THEN WILLING.

if they can.

(im always saying this. but i wil nv do it. i will nv leave my father to the lurch. i will nv not support him. thats becoz he is my FATHER!!! i realli dunno wat to do honestly. i cant leave him and i cant punish him. so wat? i can onli blame my fate into having him? wat should i do u just tel me la. i cant bear to do wat u did to us. icant bear to see ANY of my family members suffer. but can u? haha. wat a joke. u just proved it to me that u CAN. u can see us suffer! u wun plan for the future. uonli care about nowNOWNOW! when will u wake up from everything? no one can punish u no one can say u so u can do what ever u like isit? how mani yers have u nt shown concern for me? i always make an effort to come home every sunday to have the family day but hw mani times have u done it for us? i always try to make time on sunday just in case u could come back and have dinner with us but how mani times have u? how mani times disspointed have i been? can u imagine the pain and agony i have been going through? have u wondered hw hurt ur once beloved WIFE was when u went missing and we had so much financial prob?)

forget it.
u will nv see this blog.
u will nv know.
i dun intend to tell u anyway.

its useles..
can u see it?
its useless.. useless.

no point in doin everyting.

im writing all of this just to remind myself in future hw u have treated us and hw much we have gone through.

thanks for givin me wonderful memories in the past.
which i nw no longer rmb.
thanks for everyting.
if u have nt given me the pain and agony.
i wouldnt know how JERKS guys are.

everytime mum ask u for $
its a SUPPOSED TO DO act
becoz she is supporting like the hus? the bills? the kids? and mind u . its 3 of US!

and when u ask money from mum
of coz she difficult to give
THATS BECOZ SHE DUN EVEN HAVE MONEY FOR HERSELF.
WHY SHOULD SHE GIVE U?
U DUN EVEN USE THE MONEY TO SUPPORT US!

i often wondered wat have u been doin outside.
why have u nt come home
why have u not contacted us
why have u nt sshown concern for us.

i nw noe.. .. ..


even i see the fishes are more impt than us. the living humans.

its ok.
ITS OK.
U LOOK AT ME OK.
LOOK INTO MY EYES AND TELL ME IF U ARE NOT GUILTY AT ALLLL!

i m too tired to say.
im angry.upset. dissapoointed. EVERYTING!

i dun have energy to cry alrdy.
honestly.

honestly..
hw can u do this to our family.

i dun understand hw ur liang xin can guo de qu lor.
even me..
hw old m i onli?
u expect me to bring up the whole family is it?

mummy hao bu rong yi able to kip tis family til nw n u dun appreciate?

i dun understand at all wat ya tinking can.

hw can u make mumi pay for everyting and try to avoid it all!?
u can do it?

i wonder wat makes up ur personality honestly.

ive been trying hard to make myself think that u have ur difficulties.
since young.
i have been brain washing myself saying u are just busy.
but plz.
look at urself.
i cant scream and shout at u coz u are me FATHER!
how u expect me to do?
slap u and shout at ur face?

this is the first time i can ren this kinda ting so long and finalli tel it out.

hmph.
to think i can be guilty towards u for the past.
nw..
i doubt so.

u can buy BLOODY stuffs like a few k and bring home like no ones business.
u can come home as and when u like just becoz u are concern with those fishes and nt US
u can come home and pretend that this is a wonderful money making HOTEL
u can avoid all the stuffs about money and push all to MUMMY!
u can buy so much stuffs but nt gimme money.

WOW
so m i supposed to b grateful for tt?
i cant curse and swear.
i cant cry out all my sadness and disappointeness about u anymore.
im so damm sick of it. i cant cry anymore.
its ultimate sadness
but i just cant express it out.
i wish i would just slp and nv wake up. (oki thats irresponsible. coz i wil b pushing it all to my mum)

FINE.
next time when i start to earn money.
dun blame me if i dun support u.
thats becoz u wasnt the one who brought me up.

ASK THOSE FISHES AT HOME TO SUPPORT U THEN.
I GUESS THEY ARE MORE THEN WILLING.

if they can.

(im always saying this. but i wil nv do it. i will nv leave my father to the lurch. i will nv not support him. thats becoz he is my FATHER!!! i realli dunno wat to do honestly. i cant leave him and i cant punish him. so wat? i can onli blame my fate into having him? wat should i do u just tel me la. i cant bear to do wat u did to us. icant bear to see ANY of my family members suffer. but can u? haha. wat a joke. u just proved it to me that u CAN. u can see us suffer! u wun plan for the future. uonli care about nowNOWNOW! when will u wake up from everything? no one can punish u no one can say u so u can do what ever u like isit? how mani yers have u nt shown concern for me? i always make an effort to come home every sunday to have the family day but hw mani times have u done it for us? i always try to make time on sunday just in case u could come back and have dinner with us but how mani times have u? how mani times disspointed have i been? can u imagine the pain and agony i have been going through? have u wondered hw hurt ur once beloved WIFE was when u went missing and we had so much financial prob?)

forget it.
u will nv see this blog.
u will nv know.
i dun intend to tell u anyway.

its useles..
can u see it?
its useless.. useless.

no point in doin everyting.

im writing all of this just to remind myself in future hw u have treated us and hw much we have gone through.

thanks for givin me wonderful memories in the past.
which i nw no longer rmb.
thanks for everyting.
if u have nt given me the pain and agony.
i wouldnt know how JERKS guys are.

everytime mum ask u for $
its a SUPPOSED TO DO act
becoz she is supporting like the hus? the bills? the kids? and mind u . its 3 of US!

and when u ask money from mum
of coz she difficult to give
THATS BECOZ SHE DUN EVEN HAVE MONEY FOR HERSELF.
WHY SHOULD SHE GIVE U?
U DUN EVEN USE THE MONEY TO SUPPORT US!

i often wondered wat have u been doin outside.
why have u nt come home
why have u not contacted us
why have u nt sshown concern for us.

i nw noe.. .. ..


even i see the fishes are more impt than us. the living humans.

its ok.
ITS OK.
U LOOK AT ME OK.
LOOK INTO MY EYES AND TELL ME IF U ARE NOT GUILTY AT ALLLL!

i m too tired to say.
im angry.upset. dissapoointed. EVERYTING!

i dun have energy to cry alrdy.
honestly.