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Sunday, August 02, 2009
Another Day passed..
*hard day*
why do ppl hv to wrk?
why?
why?
why?
=(
just came back from suppering with my brother and cousin.
sat at playground and talked.
family matters sia.
although i know he smoked.
but i cant bear to see him smoke.
every mouth he takes.
my heart aches.
hes protective of me.
he stands far when he smokes.
he makes sure my cousin's smoke dun get cls to me.
iwantedtofeelhowhefelt. so i told him to let me try.
when i told him to give me try.
he got pissed and dao-ed me.
of coz he nv agreed.
=( but i cant bear to see him smoke.
at the 3rd stick.
i took his pack aaway.
he plead me for it.
itriedtosayno.butintheendigaveinandihatemyselffordoingso.
please boy.
i want you to control.
i know its impossible to stop u.
but please.
listen to me okies. :(
Talked alot on dad's stuffs.
my cousin's stuffs.
(they used alot of wierd language i dun uds=.=")
but seriously
i can c my cousin changing for the better.
starting to trust him :)
and yea, accepting him into our family.
aiyah.
all those troubles our whole family wish to avoid.
it seems like my bro is old enuff to know some of what i shuld know.
there are thousands of things to say.
its just that.
we all are lazy to mention it anymore.
sick.tired and bored of it.
you know dad.
as much as i wan to show concern for u.
my ego dun allow me to.
is it u to reflect? or me?
imbeginningtobeoverpossessive.
iknow.
iwilltrymybesttobeanunderstandingGf.
outofasuddenIturnedtobecometoodependent.
changedintosumonewhomItoldmyselfnvtobecum.
Iknowsoonerorlateritwilbecumaburden.
Ishouldlearntoletubreathe.
Imthinkingtooooomuch.tooomuch.
itsallwithinme.
Please.
I have to stop thinking negatively.
=)smile!
"Of the many contradictions that exist in the world, the contrast between love and hate is perhaps the starkest. It is one that helps us value true love while understanding the ramifications of hatred."
"A life without love is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead. The consciousness of loving and being loved brings a warmth and richness to life that nothing else can bring."