ytd.
my dad finalli came home and he stay.

very wierd though.
i didnt talk much to him.
until arund 1 plus?
he woke up and saw me the onli one alone and walked up to me.
asking me hw am i and other stufs.

i was..
how to say.
i wanted to run over.
say hw much i missed him and such.
but i just couldnt.
i looked to the com and instead talked to him back facing back.

we're like total strangers.

my sis was afraid my mum wanted to move out to the music room to slp instead of slping with him.
but mum didnt.

today when my mum drive me home.
we were talking in the car...

she told me hw the past is sooo meaningful to her.
she tell me something that makes me kinda touched.

mum: " i have nv regretted marrying ur dad.. if i have another chance, i will definately marry him again..i still love him .."

after all those hurt?
i wanted to let dad know hw much mum loves him..
but me myself couldnt let him know hw i feel.
i feel the love btwn my mum n dad is strong..
just tat they dun tell each other.
i can feel the hurt in my mum.
i can tink about hw my mum used to cry in the night.

mum: " at least he gave me u 3..."
=(
so guilty..

hai.

love wil last til the day we will die.
and after we die..
where wil our love go to?
we will forget each other.

what the heck is true love for anyway?

to experience the pain? joy? happiness? excitement?
experience hw long?
after tat?

i have no idea wat am i bringing myself into.
i just cont walking.
without looking, as usual..
banging into walls or pillars without feeling the pain.
or lets say..
numb.
tts why i cant feel it.

mum. dad.
i love u both.
but dad. sometimes.
we realli need u..
and when we need u..
whr were u..

mum's staying strong.
but i know she is realli sad and vulnerable.
hw can i make u understand that she needs u more than any1 else?

i hope u will stable dwn seriously.
and lets say.
hope.. u wil change someday.
to be the father tat we once had.
stay at home, watch tv with us, cook, see fish.

i dun wan u to be a stranger to all of us in like 5-10 yrs time.
=(

P.S this doesnt mean i wun kill the person if i see her with u.
im stil angry.
angry with her for being such a bitch.
seriously.
if she ever reads this.
WATCH OUT.
im so not good to SOME AUNTIES.


the tv recently show this short film about a daughter and her dad.
touching.
it reminds me of u and me .
when i was a kid.

ytd.
my dad finalli came home and he stay.

very wierd though.
i didnt talk much to him.
until arund 1 plus?
he woke up and saw me the onli one alone and walked up to me.
asking me hw am i and other stufs.

i was..
how to say.
i wanted to run over.
say hw much i missed him and such.
but i just couldnt.
i looked to the com and instead talked to him back facing back.

we're like total strangers.

my sis was afraid my mum wanted to move out to the music room to slp instead of slping with him.
but mum didnt.

today when my mum drive me home.
we were talking in the car...

she told me hw the past is sooo meaningful to her.
she tell me something that makes me kinda touched.

mum: " i have nv regretted marrying ur dad.. if i have another chance, i will definately marry him again..i still love him .."

after all those hurt?
i wanted to let dad know hw much mum loves him..
but me myself couldnt let him know hw i feel.
i feel the love btwn my mum n dad is strong..
just tat they dun tell each other.
i can feel the hurt in my mum.
i can tink about hw my mum used to cry in the night.

mum: " at least he gave me u 3..."
=(
so guilty..

hai.

love wil last til the day we will die.
and after we die..
where wil our love go to?
we will forget each other.

what the heck is true love for anyway?

to experience the pain? joy? happiness? excitement?
experience hw long?
after tat?

i have no idea wat am i bringing myself into.
i just cont walking.
without looking, as usual..
banging into walls or pillars without feeling the pain.
or lets say..
numb.
tts why i cant feel it.

mum. dad.
i love u both.
but dad. sometimes.
we realli need u..
and when we need u..
whr were u..

mum's staying strong.
but i know she is realli sad and vulnerable.
hw can i make u understand that she needs u more than any1 else?

i hope u will stable dwn seriously.
and lets say.
hope.. u wil change someday.
to be the father tat we once had.
stay at home, watch tv with us, cook, see fish.

i dun wan u to be a stranger to all of us in like 5-10 yrs time.
=(

P.S this doesnt mean i wun kill the person if i see her with u.
im stil angry.
angry with her for being such a bitch.
seriously.
if she ever reads this.
WATCH OUT.
im so not good to SOME AUNTIES.


the tv recently show this short film about a daughter and her dad.
touching.
it reminds me of u and me .
when i was a kid.